Saturday, March 24, 2007
我帶着大家的祝福, 微笑地离开了, 最后也了解在过去的一年里, 我帶給大家的不只是我所想像的. 他们的这份不舍肯定了我在大家心中的地位. 心中怀的尽是深深的感激及万分的感动. 那些不如意的是是非非,我也把它拋在身后, 暂时放自己一段假期.
我的下一步, 我得好好策划...
现在呢? 好好去玩吧... =)
12:28 AM
我帶着大家的祝福, 微笑地离开了, 最后也了解在过去的一年里, 我帶給大家的不只是我所想像的. 他们的这份不舍肯定了我在大家心中的地位. 心中怀的尽是深深的感激及万分的感动. 那些不如意的是是非非,我也把它拋在身后, 暂时放自己一段假期.
我的下一步, 我得好好策划...
现在呢? 好好去玩吧... =)
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:28 AM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
i`m jolly well rotting into a mess at home. but tomorrow i gotta return back to work. last 2 days of work finally, before i`m freed! well well well... i`ve received the confirmation letter for my course of study. i`m kinda relieved and happy but on the other hand, uneasiness and worry engulf me. my family is not so well-to-do and bearing the heavy fees may really burden us. my course commences in september but i have to pay the 1st semester`s fees next week. my savings are barely enough to cover. do i really have to take a loan from the bank? i`m really at a loss. seriously, financially wise, i admit and agree that i`m not an efficient planner, though i really try hard to. i`m really stressed out now, especially i`m going out of job soon. i know i still have my tuition jobs to keep me going but that won`t pull me through for long. unless i really concentrate on being a full-time tutor. but yet again, this requires a long term commitment, i can`t give up halfway through as and when i like. looks like i got myself stuck. what a lousy lifeless planner am i? how ami supposed to be entrusted with heavy responsibilities in future in this manner? i got to do something. and do it quick. i already know what i want to pursue, but there`re always obstacles to hinder me. where are my stepping stones and help-lines???
definitely, i got to prioritise now. some unimportant issues can jolly well wait and i know very well what they are. little red and green beans matters i`ll have to kick them outta my sight. and so do certain unworthy lifeless buggers.
meanwhile, i just want to give myself a short break before i decide for myself my next phase of life before i go back to studies. movies certainly turn me on. nice movies though. =)
like this one here. tomorrow i shall reward myself with this. =) and i heard this`s going to be the finale for he mr.bean`s series. so i`ll support this comedy and at the same time, laugh my worries off in the cinema!
and spiderman 3`s coming to town on 030507. how can i miss this after spiderman 1 and 2??? he`s my favourite hero! i'll be sure to catch this too. i sound more and more impatient. LOL! no? then move on to the next one.
HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX! this`s the 5th of the harry potter series already. screening in july though, but burning with anticipation already. agree that i`m impatient now? hees...
going genting with my family next week. i guess i`m more gear up to challenge the theme park after my hk`s experience. =) hopefully this time me and my sister need not be babysitters anymore. -.- let me enjoy a little first, not going overboard or am i? =D
5:19 PM
i`m jolly well rotting into a mess at home. but tomorrow i gotta return back to work. last 2 days of work finally, before i`m freed! well well well... i`ve received the confirmation letter for my course of study. i`m kinda relieved and happy but on the other hand, uneasiness and worry engulf me. my family is not so well-to-do and bearing the heavy fees may really burden us. my course commences in september but i have to pay the 1st semester`s fees next week. my savings are barely enough to cover. do i really have to take a loan from the bank? i`m really at a loss. seriously, financially wise, i admit and agree that i`m not an efficient planner, though i really try hard to. i`m really stressed out now, especially i`m going out of job soon. i know i still have my tuition jobs to keep me going but that won`t pull me through for long. unless i really concentrate on being a full-time tutor. but yet again, this requires a long term commitment, i can`t give up halfway through as and when i like. looks like i got myself stuck. what a lousy lifeless planner am i? how ami supposed to be entrusted with heavy responsibilities in future in this manner? i got to do something. and do it quick. i already know what i want to pursue, but there`re always obstacles to hinder me. where are my stepping stones and help-lines???
definitely, i got to prioritise now. some unimportant issues can jolly well wait and i know very well what they are. little red and green beans matters i`ll have to kick them outta my sight. and so do certain unworthy lifeless buggers.
meanwhile, i just want to give myself a short break before i decide for myself my next phase of life before i go back to studies. movies certainly turn me on. nice movies though. =)
like this one here. tomorrow i shall reward myself with this. =) and i heard this`s going to be the finale for he mr.bean`s series. so i`ll support this comedy and at the same time, laugh my worries off in the cinema!
and spiderman 3`s coming to town on 030507. how can i miss this after spiderman 1 and 2??? he`s my favourite hero! i'll be sure to catch this too. i sound more and more impatient. LOL! no? then move on to the next one.
HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX! this`s the 5th of the harry potter series already. screening in july though, but burning with anticipation already. agree that i`m impatient now? hees...
going genting with my family next week. i guess i`m more gear up to challenge the theme park after my hk`s experience. =) hopefully this time me and my sister need not be babysitters anymore. -.- let me enjoy a little first, not going overboard or am i? =D
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 5:19 PM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
down with fever all of a sudden last night. popped 2 pills but the effects were`nt there. by this morning, my temperature was on the rise and i felt weak and soft all over. could1nt find anyone to accompany me to the doctor so i pulled myself out of bed forcefully and made a trip to the family doctor by myself. i almost fainted on the way. i was burning hot physically already and what really made my blood boil was the waiting time! if i`d gone to the polyclinics, i guess th waiting time would more or less be on par! it took 2 hours before it was finally my turn. i reached home, plopped onto the sofa and refused to get up. the trip to the kitchen was only less than ten steps away and i could not find the energy to lift myself there until i really rested enough. my appetite was lousy and i only ate a small piece of bread with kaya before popping the pills. felt nauseous through-out. my genting trip is coming soon and i don`t want it to end up like my HK trip that time. still had to bring the whole packet of medicine and in midst of enjoying i still had to stop and eat my medicine on time. so please please please, let me get well soon!!!
the whole of last week was a full-house for me.
..110307..
farewell dinner for qicai at amk hub`s new york new york.
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21st birthday celebration for mr edwin huang teng feng! dinner at yuki-yaki again. bought a cake for him at bread talk at citylink with wick kor and winnie. OH MAN! from now on, we`re gonna condemn bread talk cakes!!! it looked kinda cute but it tasted awfully awful!!! but edwin sure had enough fun with the cakes. LOL! pictures will tell.
the looks-nice-but-tastes-awful cake!
edwin looks like he wants our lives like that.
drinking a cup of cream???
at yuki-yaki after creating a mess! this was part of the mess only.
at city hall mrt station.
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met up with minghua to shop at taka for my farewell present. found something to my liking after 2 hours. still have another $120 dollars worth of presents remaining...
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applied leave. out early in the morning to meet qicai for breakfast at hougang point. it was his enlistment day and we (wick kor, hazel and me) went to send him off to pulau tekong. this kid still have the boyish look. can`t imagine still, that he`s gonna serve the nation. anyways, wick kor drove and sent us to changi jetty where we boarded the ferry. on the ferry, 3 of us were reminded of our HK trip from Macau and we were like joking aroundsaying we`ll touch down in HK soon bla bla bla... LOL! well, tekong was not so bad after. spent a few hours there understanding how`s life serving the nation. tiny was enlisted on the same day as well. so we had the lunch together before they sent us off to the jetty. it was quite sad actually. but nevermind, we`re going to see him and tiny 2 weeks later! =)
from left: hazel, qicai, tiny, me and wick kor.
we`ll miss the 2 'boys'. jiayou wor!
miss road hazard on the wheels. beware! (but it looks like i`m driving a daytona instead!)
alright, a brief post it was but i am really feeling the drugs effects working on my mind and i`m still running a fever with stupid runny nose. off to rest now!
4:02 PM
down with fever all of a sudden last night. popped 2 pills but the effects were`nt there. by this morning, my temperature was on the rise and i felt weak and soft all over. could1nt find anyone to accompany me to the doctor so i pulled myself out of bed forcefully and made a trip to the family doctor by myself. i almost fainted on the way. i was burning hot physically already and what really made my blood boil was the waiting time! if i`d gone to the polyclinics, i guess th waiting time would more or less be on par! it took 2 hours before it was finally my turn. i reached home, plopped onto the sofa and refused to get up. the trip to the kitchen was only less than ten steps away and i could not find the energy to lift myself there until i really rested enough. my appetite was lousy and i only ate a small piece of bread with kaya before popping the pills. felt nauseous through-out. my genting trip is coming soon and i don`t want it to end up like my HK trip that time. still had to bring the whole packet of medicine and in midst of enjoying i still had to stop and eat my medicine on time. so please please please, let me get well soon!!!
the whole of last week was a full-house for me.
..110307..
farewell dinner for qicai at amk hub`s new york new york.
..130307..
21st birthday celebration for mr edwin huang teng feng! dinner at yuki-yaki again. bought a cake for him at bread talk at citylink with wick kor and winnie. OH MAN! from now on, we`re gonna condemn bread talk cakes!!! it looked kinda cute but it tasted awfully awful!!! but edwin sure had enough fun with the cakes. LOL! pictures will tell.
the looks-nice-but-tastes-awful cake!
edwin looks like he wants our lives like that.
drinking a cup of cream???
at yuki-yaki after creating a mess! this was part of the mess only.
at city hall mrt station.
..150307..
met up with minghua to shop at taka for my farewell present. found something to my liking after 2 hours. still have another $120 dollars worth of presents remaining...
..160307..
applied leave. out early in the morning to meet qicai for breakfast at hougang point. it was his enlistment day and we (wick kor, hazel and me) went to send him off to pulau tekong. this kid still have the boyish look. can`t imagine still, that he`s gonna serve the nation. anyways, wick kor drove and sent us to changi jetty where we boarded the ferry. on the ferry, 3 of us were reminded of our HK trip from Macau and we were like joking aroundsaying we`ll touch down in HK soon bla bla bla... LOL! well, tekong was not so bad after. spent a few hours there understanding how`s life serving the nation. tiny was enlisted on the same day as well. so we had the lunch together before they sent us off to the jetty. it was quite sad actually. but nevermind, we`re going to see him and tiny 2 weeks later! =)
from left: hazel, qicai, tiny, me and wick kor.
we`ll miss the 2 'boys'. jiayou wor!
miss road hazard on the wheels. beware! (but it looks like i`m driving a daytona instead!)
alright, a brief post it was but i am really feeling the drugs effects working on my mind and i`m still running a fever with stupid runny nose. off to rest now!
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 4:02 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
新不了情
心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮幕与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮幕与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
缘难了情难了
i don`t know why i kind of got reminded of this song when i sing k the last few times. but well... life still goes on.
tonnes and tonnes of emotions are building up inside again. i am simply uncertain of what i`m feeling, at this instance, for example. my moods hit me real bad to the extent that i want to be alone, wrapping myself up in my bedroom with doors shut and shoo those worries away. i got to be strong i know. and i need not be told of what are the do-ables and what are not. i hate myself for being such a wimp and i`m trying hard to prove to the majority i`m not easy to be a victim of bully. but why it appears that no matter where i am and what i`m doing, some irkings just irritate the wild hell of me. it`s hard to be kind anymore but not easy otherwise either. see? i confused myself now, giving myself too much to dwell upon and the mental stress is devastating. i asked myself many questions. but many a time, i know the answer to my own queries. 我只知道我的心結还是无法解开... hais...
anyways, i am my own cheerleader. today i went to register for my desired course already, the lady told me there`s a high chance i`ll get in, but who knows the future? i might be 'suay' enough to be the minute portion who failed to enter, `cos i`ve always been 'suay' most of the time. LOL! and yes, i`ve found my french language course already. it commences end March. i`ve reserved 2 places. will get the payment done maybe by tomorrow. hais... i need sleep now. i`m attitude-d. nights.
12:31 AM
新不了情
心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮幕与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮幕与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
缘难了情难了
i don`t know why i kind of got reminded of this song when i sing k the last few times. but well... life still goes on.
tonnes and tonnes of emotions are building up inside again. i am simply uncertain of what i`m feeling, at this instance, for example. my moods hit me real bad to the extent that i want to be alone, wrapping myself up in my bedroom with doors shut and shoo those worries away. i got to be strong i know. and i need not be told of what are the do-ables and what are not. i hate myself for being such a wimp and i`m trying hard to prove to the majority i`m not easy to be a victim of bully. but why it appears that no matter where i am and what i`m doing, some irkings just irritate the wild hell of me. it`s hard to be kind anymore but not easy otherwise either. see? i confused myself now, giving myself too much to dwell upon and the mental stress is devastating. i asked myself many questions. but many a time, i know the answer to my own queries. 我只知道我的心結还是无法解开... hais...
anyways, i am my own cheerleader. today i went to register for my desired course already, the lady told me there`s a high chance i`ll get in, but who knows the future? i might be 'suay' enough to be the minute portion who failed to enter, `cos i`ve always been 'suay' most of the time. LOL! and yes, i`ve found my french language course already. it commences end March. i`ve reserved 2 places. will get the payment done maybe by tomorrow. hais... i need sleep now. i`m attitude-d. nights.
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:31 AM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
yesterday i met up with helen for yuki-yaki before meeting winnie and gang for k-session. had fun with them! =) and as for today i think i`ll name it a "cafe-day", `cos today i`ve been to a few cafes in a row. 1st to gelare at suntec and then the mind cafe(where we played games till we almost went crazy, especially the "ugly doll" game. i could`nt remember how much time i said 'ugly' today!!! LOL!) followed by bliss cafe. almost threw up after drinking so much! i think i had a boat of ice-cream in my stomach even right now whilst blogging! this should clearly draft you all an idea why i`m growing sideways. anyways, i hope things really go well for us. =) we stayed at bliss till 12 plus without realising the last bus had already made its way to clementi. lols. the 2 ladies went home in a cab while me and will strolled all the way back. well, i should exercise a little after consuming so much milk liquids and solids within a day. i`m anticipating for my cardio mix session to commence in April to manage my 'on-growing' size. i`m also making a few plans for myself after my last day in Ace. gonna get myself prepared and enriched before i go back to school. well, i`ll be going down to register this 2 weeks. i already did what i can to help myself. now i really need god to grant me my wish. *praying super hard and sincerely* even if i`m alone, i`ll not fear... across the barricades to clear!
=> cardio lessons
=> french lessons (i mean language mind you who thought otherwise.)
=> more tuition lessons/another mon-fri job
=> jap lessons with sharon (maybe)
=> overseas trip with those few whom i promised
=> my braces done soon
that should be what i hope to accomplish from April to at least August. meanwhile, let`s see sotong me can adhere to my own aims or am i heading hay-wire!
there's no secret message here. haha! just feel like leaving a huge blank here~ lols!
我痛, 但不知如何形容...
我真的好痛好痛...
我好像,受伤了.
2:49 AM
yesterday i met up with helen for yuki-yaki before meeting winnie and gang for k-session. had fun with them! =) and as for today i think i`ll name it a "cafe-day", `cos today i`ve been to a few cafes in a row. 1st to gelare at suntec and then the mind cafe(where we played games till we almost went crazy, especially the "ugly doll" game. i could`nt remember how much time i said 'ugly' today!!! LOL!) followed by bliss cafe. almost threw up after drinking so much! i think i had a boat of ice-cream in my stomach even right now whilst blogging! this should clearly draft you all an idea why i`m growing sideways. anyways, i hope things really go well for us. =) we stayed at bliss till 12 plus without realising the last bus had already made its way to clementi. lols. the 2 ladies went home in a cab while me and will strolled all the way back. well, i should exercise a little after consuming so much milk liquids and solids within a day. i`m anticipating for my cardio mix session to commence in April to manage my 'on-growing' size. i`m also making a few plans for myself after my last day in Ace. gonna get myself prepared and enriched before i go back to school. well, i`ll be going down to register this 2 weeks. i already did what i can to help myself. now i really need god to grant me my wish. *praying super hard and sincerely* even if i`m alone, i`ll not fear... across the barricades to clear!
=> cardio lessons
=> french lessons (i mean language mind you who thought otherwise.)
=> more tuition lessons/another mon-fri job
=> jap lessons with sharon (maybe)
=> overseas trip with those few whom i promised
=> my braces done soon
that should be what i hope to accomplish from April to at least August. meanwhile, let`s see sotong me can adhere to my own aims or am i heading hay-wire!
there's no secret message here. haha! just feel like leaving a huge blank here~ lols!
我痛, 但不知如何形容...
我真的好痛好痛...
我好像,受伤了.
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 2:49 AM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
i`m marching right into the quicksands again. sinking as i continue to struggle free. i`d always adopt the wrong methods anyways. and i`m real sick of people taking my trust towards them for granted. well, i`m not really giving in soon. do understand that i have my own limits. i`m keeping calm and quiet does not mean i am. none of those bribes are gonna work on me. so red alert to those ''pigeon-breeders'' and ''pilots''. and oh yes, do i like, look freaking old? people thought i`m attached was okay, but now someone asked me if i`m married already! nicholas said that`s why i`ve no date. oh man!!! what is this?
i`m-in-the-feel-like-learning-french-and-jap-kinda-mood. and yes, i`m resigning! `cos i`m super unhappy with someone!!! arghs, even a single day in office kills!!!
by the way i read tytan`s blog. seems he`s feeing better. =) thumbs up. so brave of him! kinda touched when i read through his posts. jiayou and bu yao fang qi wor! and yeps, i think you choose what you liemto pursue. people's comments matter i understand but ultimately it`s you who`s going on the journey, not them ya? no matter what decision you'll make to pursue your dreams, we'll (aunty, ah gong and daddy) support you all the way! =)
KO`...
12:21 AM
i`m marching right into the quicksands again. sinking as i continue to struggle free. i`d always adopt the wrong methods anyways. and i`m real sick of people taking my trust towards them for granted. well, i`m not really giving in soon. do understand that i have my own limits. i`m keeping calm and quiet does not mean i am. none of those bribes are gonna work on me. so red alert to those ''pigeon-breeders'' and ''pilots''. and oh yes, do i like, look freaking old? people thought i`m attached was okay, but now someone asked me if i`m married already! nicholas said that`s why i`ve no date. oh man!!! what is this?
i`m-in-the-feel-like-learning-french-and-jap-kinda-mood. and yes, i`m resigning! `cos i`m super unhappy with someone!!! arghs, even a single day in office kills!!!
by the way i read tytan`s blog. seems he`s feeing better. =) thumbs up. so brave of him! kinda touched when i read through his posts. jiayou and bu yao fang qi wor! and yeps, i think you choose what you liemto pursue. people's comments matter i understand but ultimately it`s you who`s going on the journey, not them ya? no matter what decision you'll make to pursue your dreams, we'll (aunty, ah gong and daddy) support you all the way! =)
KO`...
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:21 AM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
i`m surprised to find myself in the blogging mood on a saturday night. =)
"...the past few days were rather torturous. work was holy s***. i sat at my own office desk, often in dazes, reluctant to complete my given assignments. this only happens when my morale has hitched its minimum. honestly, i detest suck-ups. i see people bootlicking in office and yes i jolly well know that this is super common in offices. but i still won`t give face to them. never! i was sitting in a corner last thursday, tears flowing their way out uncontrollably. i had enough at work, enough at people who don`t try understanding me, no doubt i`d been rather accomodating towards them and enough of craps from external factors. thanks for contributing to my misery uh-huh. i sometimes no longer feel like replying to smses nor even talk. oh you may think this lady here is an ill-attitude one, by all means! when i don`t want to talk to you means i don`t want to. stop asking me out. 我和你不是很熟!!! and i don`t need a fling, don`t bother bugging me. 你这也叫爱吗? oh yes, i`m not pretty enough to show off this attitude i know but who cares now? cos i`m provoked! i need a long------------- BREAK!!!!" ---> wow, is this really me? sounded like me? but i really felt better after typing this paragraph, can`t believe it myself either.
to shake my depression mode off, here's something else, at least cheer me up a little. well, soon enough, i`m going to embark on a journey which i longed for. yes, i`m going back to school-life soon. decided on my course of study already, and now only to decide the institution and the university offering me the course. well, i guess i`d have to do some research so i`ll not have any regrets to myself like what i told songhan when he was choosing his course not too long back. =) i took a day`s leave from work to attend the career fair at suntec city after collecting my 'rusy-dusty' certificate from MOE yesterday and i really find that trip a very fruitful one cos i got many of my doubts answered. i realised after i came out to work the last 2 or 3 years, i`m getting more vocal. i remembered i used to hide my queries and asked my friends to make enquiries for me, now i do that myself. =)
anyways, during the evening, catching up on the CNY train before it reaches the 15th, me and my "little family" went on a dinner date at serangoon gardens 'pow sing restaurant'. before that, i got to know tytan`s a-levels results. was very upset for him. almost did`nt know how to console him but i thought i managed to. sounds contradicting right? i just read his blog and can still sense the torment he`s feeling. cos i experienced it 2 times already. sometimes it can really drive you to insomia, a loss of appetite or over-eating and the feeling of "mood-less-ness", no matter what you do. but he`s really brave. can sense his efforts to smile in front of us yesterday and today, so he won`t make us worried. i`m rather sure he thinks this way, don`t know why. however, i believe he`ll be strong. =) i hope he`ll cheer up soon and find his dream alternatively. anyways we went singing after dinner. hope that cheers my nephew a little. =) me and winnie got him an eeyore soft toy as well. may that serves him as a lucky charm for him as well. "wo de nephew ni yao jiayou ok? wo he ah gong and daddy will support ni de!!!!!" ok, time for some pictures. i love taking pictures. they serve as a memory. =)
the 4.
black. white. black.
someone, through a friend wants to know my another friend... hey, i`m not friendster hor! please huhs!!! i not so free de lor!!! no more no more! 我和你也不是很熟ok!!! bu yao disturb wo huhs!!! bleahs! and i`m not the customer service counter hor!! THANK YOU FOR YOUR CO-OPERATION. 谢谢合作. and i`m serious. you ask somemore i shout already. if i see you, i`ll bite! irritating!
and by the way when should i submit my resignation??? i better get my letter ready. =) i await the next phase of my life, without some annoyances of course!
~there're some things only i`ll comprehend i guess. =) i`m off.
10:40 PM
i`m surprised to find myself in the blogging mood on a saturday night. =)
"...the past few days were rather torturous. work was holy s***. i sat at my own office desk, often in dazes, reluctant to complete my given assignments. this only happens when my morale has hitched its minimum. honestly, i detest suck-ups. i see people bootlicking in office and yes i jolly well know that this is super common in offices. but i still won`t give face to them. never! i was sitting in a corner last thursday, tears flowing their way out uncontrollably. i had enough at work, enough at people who don`t try understanding me, no doubt i`d been rather accomodating towards them and enough of craps from external factors. thanks for contributing to my misery uh-huh. i sometimes no longer feel like replying to smses nor even talk. oh you may think this lady here is an ill-attitude one, by all means! when i don`t want to talk to you means i don`t want to. stop asking me out. 我和你不是很熟!!! and i don`t need a fling, don`t bother bugging me. 你这也叫爱吗? oh yes, i`m not pretty enough to show off this attitude i know but who cares now? cos i`m provoked! i need a long------------- BREAK!!!!" ---> wow, is this really me? sounded like me? but i really felt better after typing this paragraph, can`t believe it myself either.
to shake my depression mode off, here's something else, at least cheer me up a little. well, soon enough, i`m going to embark on a journey which i longed for. yes, i`m going back to school-life soon. decided on my course of study already, and now only to decide the institution and the university offering me the course. well, i guess i`d have to do some research so i`ll not have any regrets to myself like what i told songhan when he was choosing his course not too long back. =) i took a day`s leave from work to attend the career fair at suntec city after collecting my 'rusy-dusty' certificate from MOE yesterday and i really find that trip a very fruitful one cos i got many of my doubts answered. i realised after i came out to work the last 2 or 3 years, i`m getting more vocal. i remembered i used to hide my queries and asked my friends to make enquiries for me, now i do that myself. =)
anyways, during the evening, catching up on the CNY train before it reaches the 15th, me and my "little family" went on a dinner date at serangoon gardens 'pow sing restaurant'. before that, i got to know tytan`s a-levels results. was very upset for him. almost did`nt know how to console him but i thought i managed to. sounds contradicting right? i just read his blog and can still sense the torment he`s feeling. cos i experienced it 2 times already. sometimes it can really drive you to insomia, a loss of appetite or over-eating and the feeling of "mood-less-ness", no matter what you do. but he`s really brave. can sense his efforts to smile in front of us yesterday and today, so he won`t make us worried. i`m rather sure he thinks this way, don`t know why. however, i believe he`ll be strong. =) i hope he`ll cheer up soon and find his dream alternatively. anyways we went singing after dinner. hope that cheers my nephew a little. =) me and winnie got him an eeyore soft toy as well. may that serves him as a lucky charm for him as well. "wo de nephew ni yao jiayou ok? wo he ah gong and daddy will support ni de!!!!!" ok, time for some pictures. i love taking pictures. they serve as a memory. =)
the 4.
black. white. black.
someone, through a friend wants to know my another friend... hey, i`m not friendster hor! please huhs!!! i not so free de lor!!! no more no more! 我和你也不是很熟ok!!! bu yao disturb wo huhs!!! bleahs! and i`m not the customer service counter hor!! THANK YOU FOR YOUR CO-OPERATION. 谢谢合作. and i`m serious. you ask somemore i shout already. if i see you, i`ll bite! irritating!
and by the way when should i submit my resignation??? i better get my letter ready. =) i await the next phase of my life, without some annoyances of course!
~there're some things only i`ll comprehend i guess. =) i`m off.
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 10:40 PM